a state 
when everything is a muse for you, 
when the only value of ideas, people, event, nature, things etc around is that it helps you reduce the restlessness of the mind, 
when you are truly not interested in anything but only, for it makes you feel less lonesome, when you can carelessly laugh and/or cry because that is the exact and simplest way of expressing abundant complex and subtle emotions. 
Such.
Such is my present state of mind.